hey...guys well things havent been going too good for me and corey unfortunately and we let it all out last night basically it was be complaining according to him all week and for the past 3 weeks i was acting weird how why? idk i think i had my period 2 times...and uhh other than that it ws cuz of my parents pressure and just everything coming down on me and he told me sometimes he didnt care if we fought im like wow...cuz like i wouldl try to make it better or lighter note than he would say well im not like that or something to push it and i just get really pissed and last night i was EXTREMELY HURT because well ok for this boy ive sent him stuff ive spent 70 bucks on ok? and i stay up really late like till 1-3 AM talking to him even though my parents hate him and spend 10 bucks a week using a freakin payphone at school so we could talk for 1 dollar every 4 minutes and even dont eat sometimes just so i could do that and i sedn him ecards and just do everything i possibly can to make him happy or show him i love him then come lastnight whilearguing i realized how much ive been doing for him and i  get nothing in return partly because he has no money and yet still cant ever think of sending me thank you ecard WHAT THE FUCK? and i felt like complete shit last night ttoo also cuz i am sick like a bad cold and ya know what else added on to it? afterall that he fuckin likes someone at school that he has like 4 classes with that he sits next to and everything and they flirt a lot i mean OMG what more could i do?? he says he loves me still and that him liking her is nothing compared to me and that she's nothign compared to me just us not talking has made him miss me and since she kinda acts like me he likes her now...and the whole time its been over a week he's liked her and the whole time he was wearing a dog tag chain i got him for like 50 bucks and a bracelet thing i owulda thought that woulda been enough reminder of my love for him and him not doing that..before he even told me that he couldnt see ever how it was possible to even think of liking someone else...and yet look where we are and as a result i am not going to speak to him till next friday or until i call and by the way im talking to him tonight but only since our freakin 10 MONTHS anniversary is tomoro wow i feel like shit..am i wrong in all this? im just scared one thing will lead to another or more liking he says he wont talk to her if it gets like that or ignore the feelings but i know they'll only get stronger..and even if they do..i still couldnt be able to leave him.. he says he dont like her after our convo last night but i know me not talking to him till next friday will make him at least start again but thats not the reason why im doing it i just need space..and im starting to not care anymore..i mean i cant even say i love you or give him a kiss without feeling that way...i never thought he woulda broken my heart like that after all ive done..."You never know what someone truly means, till they're gone."